FINALLY i fulfilled my BUilding FUND hahaha muahahaha thought i could nt do it bt in the end i did it haha phew.Darryl talked to me after service and we realli talked alot regarding alot of tings ah haha realli enlightened and it made me realise lot of tings like wat i shld focus and tat she and the cell grp are always dere and tat we are a family.Darryl also said I shld nt change my values because of someone who could nt see and appreciate the values that i had.Totally understood wat she was tryin to tell me.If she dun appreciate them and did opposite tings to hurt me den i shld nt feel so sorry for myself and tormenting myself.I realised wat Darryl tried to do and she was helping me and nt to force me into doin tings,i have someting big waitin for me and i shld go for it and not stop at tis point of my life where tings are not goin good for me.Believing in that and time will reveal tings to me bah.

9:20 AM;
I made my mark

Enough said anyway u will be ok after tis sat den after tat u will be happy again so be happy and lead your happy life.

3:01 AM;
I made my mark

HOMEWORK HOMEWORK AND MORE HOMEWORK wah lau eh goin to faint le la so many projects to do also tests tests and so many tests y is year 3 so hard one haha neva mind it will be a great test for me on hw i am goin to handle problems now and in the future i hate homework remind me of hell in secondary skool dae in and out is all homework homework haha.Not an easy week for me bah alot of times i get negative thoughts but still i know i have to overcome them and i can seriously sae it is not easy not for me.For tis past 7 mths the tings i hav gone through wat is known as HELL not easy at all.Disappointment, anger and questioning myself wat hav i done wrong and where did it go wrong and was i the problem, after everyting i thought i done right onli to crumble,make my heart hurt for 5 mths and she doesn't even care.She can even ignore me ok i get the point while i was suffering she was enjoying her life. i shall juz buzz off and dun be a idiot waitin and wondering hw are u onli to be ignored and wat for i see u online and u see me online it is juz a barrier and obstacle that u need to clear sooner or later.U juz do wat your sister and your leader sae bah anywae wat they sae are always correct and i cant beat in anyway juz like u they will use the bile and prove to u everyting.Do wat u wan la watever u do to others it will come back to u.U wan tok den tok dun wan den dun wan.

8:20 AM;
I made my mark

Didn't know that u are goin through such a though time if i can forgive u and me so can u bah though it is nt completely fogiven but let time heal u and let u be the happy girl that i once knew.Maybe we got together at the wrong time when we r nt mature and all.When u r healed and all den u talk to be bah i am ok wif it jiayou wor!!will be prayin for u and for myself also.Hopefully by the nex time we meet again we can handle it properly and start all over again.Like wat your motto saes i Smile big big no matter wat i will also learn from u bah so for now jiayou bah i hav faith in you.Real friens are those that will understand u no matter wat mood or behaviour that u r showing bah they will be dere to lend a ear to u without conditions and they will not demean u to make u more miserable.

Stay happy

8:19 PM;
I made my mark

This month is goin to be a tough month for me bah after giving to the building fund which i am still short of a little more,i realli dun noe wat to do liao i am seriously seriously broke.I had to pay for my friens com repair which i knocked and i have to cough out 100 bucks for it which is juz a small knock but neva min it is me to knock it so i shall not persist i juz hav to pay.Hav been eating sweet potato for the past 4 to 5 daes already and i can onli eat my proper meal at home when i am having dinner i dun noe hw to survive like tat realli chum!!Hope that HE will see the effort i am trying to put in here.


each time i see u,my heart will shatter u juz dun understand do u, time and again i juz wonder to myself hav i nt loved u enough or am i nt good enough for u to do tings to me to hurt me so badly and i had to suffer for months is tis wat i get in retuen for lovin u?

8:46 AM;
I made my mark

U make it sound like as though u r the one being hurt the most.U dont hav any idea hw much i suffered in the mths that passed,your words and your doings hav torn my heart apart.But still after much time i am still able to forgive for wat u did.I forgive but i dont forget.So y is it so hard for u to forgive?If u r able to do it without hesitation and said No to everyting that i asked after u did the untinkable den y is it so hard for u to "forgive" and cant forgive me for wat?not being able to handle wat u did to me ah?

7:02 PM;
I made my mark