Sorri for tinkin so much.I thought this time it would be different but i was wrong shld nt hav bothered u.The words that u sae are like knifes goin through my heart and u may nt know that it realli hurts me and tears will juz flow even as i am writing tis.I am sorry i juz dun noe hw to tok to u or when i shld tok to u cos each time i tok to u,u r either busy,doin someting else or goin out le.

9:03 PM;
I made my mark

Oh yah forgt to add someting haha when we went to buy char kway teow the uncle sae :"Ah girl ah is that your sister"oh my goodness i thought i heard wrong den when he sae it again i ji tao damn ma lu la oh my goodnesss!!!!!!!!!!Den Siying laugh untill the world world like goin come down like tat hahaha tis is nt the first time le loh!!!

11:03 PM;
I made my mark

Todae was the last day of my EXAM haha damn happy lah ECPM is quite ok bah is my most qing song de haha lol.Ended at abt 4 haha but i left earlier lol haha very sian ah i onli know 3 out of 4 questions.Met Siying after tat hahawent to fellowship wif her and to see her dog botak haha lol damn funni la den saw one poodle so small also botak left the head dere gt hair onli hahaha Siying dog damn cute lah haha like to lick ppl so cute la hahaha after tat she went meet her frien haha so fuuni lah wat they tok abt lol neva expect to hear tat from her lol.Thanks alot Siying for lending me money haha i tis month pok liao le haha waitin to get allowance haha ate char kway teow haha alot sia eat untill wan die le haha.Tok alot of tings bah haha lol it was fun as i can sae haha i also free todae no plans.Went to woodlands interchange to take 169 haha reach home abt 45 mins???haha i tink la.On the way home thought alot of tings bah haha anywae hope she is doin fine and Wishin her Good LUCk haha tink she also forgotten abt me le bah haha.

9:22 AM;
I made my mark

STudied like crazy for 2 daes man all the way from 9pm to 2am den i wake up at 6 and look again at the questions and try realli very very tired but i prayed to god for strength and i MUZ do WELL I MUZ AH i already prmised i will work hard i muz mean wat i sae.1 more dae juz 1 more dae will do please give me the strength god am also havin shortness of breaths dun noe why sometimes like cant breathe maybe i dieing le bah haha lol maybe if i die den ppl will be happy bah hahaha

1:46 AM;
I made my mark

oh my goODness my first paper is coming and it is EM3A maths arGhhHHhhh wish me luck haha lol goin to sleep le haha

9:08 AM;
I made my mark

HAHA forgt to mention also on sundae when i went to Darryl house after the cell group meetin was over and there was fellowship.Hotdog came out and he was like so excited la haha damn active la the dog and so jumpy haha was a bit scared as he like my previous dog haha so jumpy scary la haha he was kept in the kitchen and left to run freely nt in the living room haha onli in the kitchen.When i went into the kitchen he chase after me la he bit my shirt and gt 2 holes in the front la den when i turn ard to wash my hand he bite my backside la so painful la haha he dun wan let go leh and i walk a few round wif him stil hanging on my butt la u can imagine hw painful haha lol den finally hw willing to let go haha the whole cell laughing at me la and i am the only guy and onli person who kena bite by the doggy la no one ever kena bite in the backside b4 so sad he dun like me haha.When Ming Jing came home he laughed at me la haha so bad la.This was the first time a dog bite my backside cant imagine.

9:34 PM;
I made my mark

Todae went for cell haha oh yah haven sae Darryl is my new CGL HAHA YAYYYYY!!!! she is damn good lah very caring haha also kind of miss desmond but yea i shld look forward to my new cell group and tat i will grow in the lord and be the prince that he desires and will look forward to the dae that i will change in my flaws and walk in purity and righteousness.Realli felt the love that the cell group has and that Darryl if i neva spell wrongly is a great great leader and her love could be felt troughout the whole cell and that i am sure i will grow wif her leadership and do tings and serve the cell.Am lookin forward to the dae that i hav realli change in everyting and that i can fulfill the promise that i made.Lifting all up to God but sometimes will still remember her and all.But the memories will be always in my heart and for nw i juz wan to grow and grow and be the person that god called me for.The rest is up to GOD and that hope that he will guide me in my walk and tell me if my directions and approach are the right choice.

Shall let nature take its course and that everyting will start all over again and also a new chapter

4:01 AM;
I made my mark

Todae was an emotional dae for me as it is nt onli Valentines dae but also the day that desmond flew to australia to study haha he will be there for 8 mths i tink and will be back in october like tat i tink.Wish desmond all the best in his studies and when he is back in singapore he will once again rise up haha who knows he may become a CGL again haha believing that it will come and that he will get a high paying job and will shine for god haha JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!
TODAE is also Valentines dae and i wish everyone a happy Valentines DAE especially to the couples and those that are in love.Reminded me of last valentines dae wat i did and all but wat can i sae i am back to square one.It juz doesn't pay to be nice to someone and in the end wat u get????Don't wan to tink abt tat and i will neva forget the dae u rejected me 4 times and left me alone and u juz wonder off wif your friens.Will neva forget and will neva understand y u did those tings to me and even if i did understand u juz hav to reject me 4 times and nt give me a chance tis is wat i called grateful and loving.Good luck to u.

8:43 AM;
I made my mark

Juz gt back from prayer meeting todae is the 2nd time i go in a row haha it is nt abt the stamps and the free gift bah but it is abt gettin near to GOD each dae and to know him more and more.It was quite refreshing for me and i hope tat good and better tings will come for me and my prayers will be answered an heard by god bah still get the hurt sometimes and somemore Valentines dae is comin even worse.See those flower shops wif those teddy bears make me hate valentines dae and wan to strangle those bears.But still i cant be angry and shld ren sometimes i juz realli miss her,her eyes,her smile but i am also nt sure hw she feels and tinks somemore she ignored me and treated me like an unwanted pet when u love the pet u will stick close to it and when it is useless u throw it away and wont even look at it much less take it back.I am juz like an unwanted pet being abondoned and dumped and left to die in a corner hai.
Take care jonathan and good luck in your first dae of work tml.

7:03 AM;
I made my mark

Went prayer meeting yesterdae evening and met jonathan, yvonne at subway dere haha we chatted abit and soon we went to prayer meetin at river walk dere.Oh yah on the way to riverwalk i bought burger king cos subway abit ex ah haha den eat someting cheap bah.The prayer meetin was very impactful for me as i am goin through alot of tought times,hurt and dissappointment.But luckily i found peace in GOD and i can sae tat i hav changed in someways bah and i will neva repeat them ever again.As for my temper problem i hav found a way to control it bah and i know juz wat to do when i am angry and i wont shout at anyone much less in the public.I know wat my mistakes are and i am determined to change for the better and neva to tink of BACK SLIDING NEVAAAAaaaa!!!!!!! Went to CHinatown to eat dinner wif joshua and jonathan talked alot on the way and i will miss tis times man when we fellowship.Todae am also goin for prayer meetin in the evening wif jonathan haha hope i can see more breakthroughs and hav hope and faith which is lackin in me.


am wondering will tis valentines dae be the same as the others i hav?dun noe the answer

10:55 PM;
I made my mark

Todae wen to Cg at desmonds hse haha at first thought i cant make it de but yea i decided tat i muz put in effort if nt i wont be changing anyting and juz remain the same.I wan to change and i will workhard towards it.Todaes message was great bah desmond shared abt living sacrifices and it realli impacted me deeply he also laid hands on us and i will walk tis road wif god and neva will i backslide.I wan to grow better in person in character so as to lead a meaningful life.Thought many stuff in my head bah need to pray and seek the ans.

7:02 AM;
I made my mark

7:02 AM;
I made my mark

It is goin to be another long dae on valentines dae bah, just ard the corner no plans on tat dae yet but dun tink will be goin out bah no point goin out on tat dae juz to remind myself of the tings tat i did with no sense of achievement and back to the starting point again.HAppy VAlentines DAe to all the couples in the WOrld bah wishin u Happiness and enjoy yourselves and also to those tat are dating bah wish u will find the right person and treasure him or her bah.Good luck to all the singles,hope u find the special someone.



wish u will find the Mr right in your life bah i already did wat i could le and even if i wan to repair the damage i dun even hav the chance to. I noe i dun deserve a second chance and maybe i am not good enough for u in terms of looks or character and to be even given a second chance.i guess that it is over between us and u hav already got over it and found someone special le bah.All the best.I will juz let god do the rest if we are meant to be together den let it be the new chapter and the best one yet bah.

2:13 AM;
I made my mark